I truly found God at Mercy. I was a very broken person and hated myself. I was not a pleasant person to be around. I was a burden to others and since I was hurting, I hurt others. What a life to live? it was miserable life. I didn't realize how miserable I was until I truly found God in my life. I began to find joy, and I mean the REAL joy that only God can bring into your life. I had so many things to overcome when I walked through the doors of Mercy. I dealt with addiction, abuse, anxiety, depression, self harm. It was a dark life that I had lived for way too many years. But it was a turning point in my life. It set a foundation for who I would be today. No, I'm not perfect, I'm actually far from it. I now have tools and even better God to go through life.
As I've shared of how I overcame alot there and it was because I truly found God for myself and put him first in my life. Things have been very challenging being in the real world. As things have been a lot better over the past three years, it still has come with many challenges. I have had struggles, depression, anxiety, other things come up that were deep wounds, and rebuilding friendships. Its all been a challenge. I have gone back to counseling at times, I have had people pray over me, encourage me, and just listen. But the thing thats different is, is that even at my lowest points of being home from Mercy, I have had God to turn too and seek.
God is a God who works miracles in our lives and he still does each day. To stay in a healthy place I have to seek him daily and when I am not fully seeking him is when I fall back into old unhealthy habits. Its a journey friends. So when you have bad days know that you're not alone, we are in this battle together. I wouldn't change my life and the things that happened to me and the choices I made. Yes, somethings are not pretty but its who I am today. I am able to help people that other people can't reach and bring encouragement to others. It is all God.
Embrace your journey! It may not be pretty but its a journey God will bring you through, if you're willing to allow him to ride the journey with you. Be who you are. Its not easy and you will have set backs. One of my favorite quotes that's not spiritual at all. And excuse one word in it.
"Pull up your boot straps and wade through the shit" yes not spiritual but true. Sometimes we just have go put one foot in front of the other to make it to the next step. You are worth fighting for. So keep fighting!
As I've shared of how I overcame alot there and it was because I truly found God for myself and put him first in my life. Things have been very challenging being in the real world. As things have been a lot better over the past three years, it still has come with many challenges. I have had struggles, depression, anxiety, other things come up that were deep wounds, and rebuilding friendships. Its all been a challenge. I have gone back to counseling at times, I have had people pray over me, encourage me, and just listen. But the thing thats different is, is that even at my lowest points of being home from Mercy, I have had God to turn too and seek.
God is a God who works miracles in our lives and he still does each day. To stay in a healthy place I have to seek him daily and when I am not fully seeking him is when I fall back into old unhealthy habits. Its a journey friends. So when you have bad days know that you're not alone, we are in this battle together. I wouldn't change my life and the things that happened to me and the choices I made. Yes, somethings are not pretty but its who I am today. I am able to help people that other people can't reach and bring encouragement to others. It is all God.
Embrace your journey! It may not be pretty but its a journey God will bring you through, if you're willing to allow him to ride the journey with you. Be who you are. Its not easy and you will have set backs. One of my favorite quotes that's not spiritual at all. And excuse one word in it.
"Pull up your boot straps and wade through the shit" yes not spiritual but true. Sometimes we just have go put one foot in front of the other to make it to the next step. You are worth fighting for. So keep fighting!
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