Depression is Real....Its a struggle I've had for many years. Its not fun to admit it or to be open about it. But we honestly need more people to share their heart on tough subjects. Its a battle that comes and goes in life. Partly I believe it can be very chemical in each persons brain. But I also believe we can change it by our thought process. It may not cure our depression or negative thoughts, but we can feel better when we start speaking life over our depression. Gods truth is what brings us peace and healing.
I honestly HATE it!! Its not pretty or fun. I hate it for each person who I know deals with it also. My heart goes out to you and others who struggle with this beast. I'm sorry the enemy tortures you also. I can say I've struggled most of my life and adult life with it. As I say it comes and goes. It sometimes is circumstantial and sometimes chemical. It all depends on the situation going on in my environment.
In the past six months, I can say as I have come in and out of depression, its been environmental. I have moved from Arkansas to Dallas, Texas to Miami, Florida. Now that is ALOT of change. Being out of my comfort zone that's for sure. My family is my life. My nephews are my world. I can't tell you how hard that has been to be away from them. Even going home a couple times a month, it still doesn't make it easier. I try to enjoy my time with my family and nephews when I'm able to fly home for a couple days! They will always hold a special place in my heart.
As being a Flight Attendant is stinking amazing. Its fun to be out of the country one day and back the next. You meet fun people and interesting people along the way. But it can become very lonely at times also. Which can cause the depression to rear its ugly head. Being away for twenty days a month on average isn't easy. Its hard to build community where I am. The job is great overall though. Who can complain about getting paid to lay on the beach? Not me!
One thing through this season I'm learning is I only have God to walk with me daily. Being reminded that as real as the depression can get at times; how much more real my God is. He hasn't left my side in any of this. Honestly he is the reason I am here today. His daily Grace to carry me through.
Today, I was able to go sit on the beach here in Florida. I snapped the picture above. I was reminded about how God is holding my hand through this entire journey. As the waves crashed in on shore, I began to have a heart of gratitude. It took my mind off the depression trying to take over my mind and brought a peace that I needed. It is a peace that only God can bring into each of our lives. I was reminded of how our circumstances can change when our mindset shifts away from the problems. No this isn't a quick fix. I might feel down again tomorrow. But for now I will embrace the peace God has given me.
God gave this verse this week for me to hold tight too.
-2God grabbed me. God’s Spirit took me up and set me down in the middle of an open plain strewn with bones. He led me around and among them—a lot of bones! There were bones all over the plain—dry bones, bleached by the sun.3He said to me, “Son of man, can these bones live?”I said, “Master God, only you know that.”4He said to me, “Prophesy over these bones: ‘Dry bones, listen to the Message of God!’”5-6God, the Master, told the dry bones, “Watch this: I’m bringing the breath of life to you and you’ll come to life. I’ll attach sinews to you, put meat on your bones, cover you with skin, and breathe life into you. You’ll come alive and you’ll realize that I am God!”
This passage has been encouraging to me. I have held tight to this truth. The lord is speaking truth and life into me. I daily have to cling to his truth, so I will not stay stuck but find peace in my life. I pray that this all will be a starting point for you too.
Carry on!
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