My Journey

Just six years ago this was my reality. DEATH....It had been knocking on my door for years. I was exhausted and tired of fighting. My family had just sent me to treatment just 8 months before this, hoping that I would come back better. I did for only a few months. Then the inner demons came right back at me taking me down, to almost death. Its scary to look back on those dark days. I decided to go to treatment once again but to a place that was free of charge and spiritual based.

I went to Mercy Ministries (now Mercy Multiplied). I am so thankful for each person I met at Mercy and really finding God for myself. I was ready to find healing and wholeness at this point in my life. Whats cool is that even in my disbelief, God still met me and walked with me.

Six months of being at Mercy were some of the hardest months but I walked away different. No I wasn't done healing and still had many struggles ahead of me. But I knew where my true strength came from and that was God. I had a staff that believed in me, loved me, and walked with me, with compassion. I never felt alone there. It was the beginning of a new journey and life.

Since being graduated from Mercy almost 5 years ago, I've had many struggles within my eating disorder and depression. I have thought I was going to lose it again, lost hope, had zero strength....But I can tell you even when I wasn't fully seeking God, he was fighting for me. My family, friends, treatment team was fighting for me. I may have felt alone, but I am never alone.

This is a journey that I'm on. I have to fight my eating disorder behaviors and depression. But I have and will not give up. As I've stated before, God hasn't left me and he won't now. Its a hard but beautiful journey. So there is hope for each of us who are struggling within the mental disorder realm! We have hope in Jesus. We are warriors in this battle. We will fight together and not give up. Keep on warrior!

Keep Fighting the good fight :)