Understanding Addiction

Its not by accident that you have ran into my blog today. God may want to speak to you through your own struggles or watching others suffer through addiction. I'm praying that you will find understanding, freedom, hope, and encouragement from this blog.

Addiction: is the continued repetition of a behavior despite adverse consequences, or a neurological impairment leading to such behaviors.

Addiction is a hard topic, many don't want to talk about it, admit they have an addiction, or confront it with a loved one or a friend. I mean who wants to talk about addiction? I used to never talk about it because its easier to keep it a secret from others. Addiction is bondage. And with not talking about my struggles for 8 years kept me in bondage. I was dying inside in many ways. Scary to think about today as a healthy woman. Even after talking about my addiction I still was in bondage but being open and honest brought freedom/recovery slowly. Guys addiction is a journey. 

Someone here may deal with alcohol, drugs, eating disorders, porn, sex, cutting, anxiety, depression, bi polar, and so many more addictions. And whether you are in recovery today or just seeking it now, ITS OKAY. You've come to a safe place to find freedom. 

Addiction is a slow process that takes a grip of you. But this grip ends up holding you captive for a long time. When I was starting out with my eating disorder at age 11, I didn't realize it was slowly grabbing me and taking me captive. I was controlling my food and exercise because of other circumstances that had happened to me. But the hand of addiction grabbed me so tight where at age 23 I could have died from it. I was so deep within my anorexia at this time it was hard for others to watch me slowly die. I became to live in the world of "denial" which most addicts live here. I didn't care I was killing myself or others at this time in my life. It had me so tight that not eating and exercise was my life. 

Addiction is a killer. And being addicted to things in my own life, I have to each day go before the Lord and seek him to guide my steps, my mind, and my life. Because in one second I could go right back to old behaviors because they seem "appealing" which in reality I know its not. It has been God that has sustained me each day since I was 11 years old. I have to daily cling to God because without him I would not be living a life full of freedom and recovery, have my family, have support, and would not have the testimony that I have today. God gets the glory for all the things I have been through. 

If you are supporting one who is struggling with an addiction please please LOVE THEM. Showing them love and acceptance is the best thing a friend or family member could do. We don't need someone to make us feel ashamed anymore than we already do. A lot of shame comes with dealing with an addiction because you have let yourself down and the ones who love you the most. Encourage them don't condemn them. Show the person Jesus in anyway that you can. Jesus is the only one who will and can bring you full healing. Get this person HELP. Don't get me wrong I have been to numerous counselors and treatment centers that FAILED..Yes I said FAILED! But the last place I went was Mercy Ministries. This is where I found God and truly sought freedom from Him and not people or doctors. What a freeing feeling that is. So there is hope in your situation. Get the right help that is centered around God. 

Know there is hope for you no matter where you are today. If you are struggling thats OKAY, just seek God and the right help for you. I am here if you need me. Addiction is REAL. Be open and be FREE!! More to come on addiction!